Why have I been forsaken to be single & Virgin forever in a small town?
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Now, wait before you get on my case of me whining and ranting about how much I have the most horrible life in the freakin world compared to starving people…ect…ect. Let me explain before you judge, alright what I’m getting at is I live in a small town we’re referred to as a “City” but it’s not worth that much in pennies. We’re a large small town, but we’re like a giant ghost town basically. There sure as hell isn’t a giant Gay Area around here. Actually, there isn’t one at all hell the school GSA bombed two years ago because of zero funding and nobody came (Mostly because they didn’t promote aside the High School Club book but that’s besides the point right).
I’ve gone on Downelink.com (Not sure if that is the sites name) Absolutely nothing, I’ve gone on Treverspace.com Boring as hell >.<" Plus I didn't get anything besides one person asking if I'd F*ck him =_="
All I have is the imaginary bell tower I live in, my family which basically is great for love but nonexistent in the conversation department I basically get shot down being told I'm "Ranting, Being Negative" or something of the sort. I'm out to my mother & Sister but they don't really like to talk about the gay side of thing (I'm a guy by the way), I can't stand my fathers side of the family because their all ignorant Closeted bigots that grew their children to be Gender role following numbskulls and I can't stand my mother's side for the same reason. Men Hunt/Play sports/Work on cars and love trucks, Girls dance and look oh so Freakin fake with their phones, make up and fancy clothes *Rolls eyes* At least I can talk to my male cousins on my fathers side. My Mom's side of the family is overly religious it's pathetic...
As for the Guys or girls department, yea right. I had four crushes in high school that my mind won't let me "Move on" with, Three out of the four ended in either two ways. One "Your not my type" or "No reason why".
On top of that I suffer from a wish to die, now it's not a wish it's more like I some how concocted an idea that I was going to die at eighteen. So, I didn't plan on going to college or getting a job. On top of that, suffering from depression from years of bullying and harassment I faced in school before isolation because I became "The Kid that's going to shoot us all up" I many years ago when I was much younger came up with this Plan that literally screwed myself it went like this.
1. No Marriage
2. No Car
3. No Job
4. No Muscles
Don't ask me why, I literally have zero friends aside from one I've met on here. I can say I have zero past because I never planned on living long enough to have one... I did go to a psychologist because my parents wanted to "Get to know me better", all it taught them was I was guess what! Depressed, It showed me that the psychologist in this town of the thoughtlessly dull shouldn't even have her license. She never listen to what I said, any comments she did make didn't make sense and it was a waste of my time and on my last visit I told her that.
Why have I been forsaken to be single & Virgin forever in a small town? Why aren't there actual LGBT related sites where people actually aim to talk where it isn't so godly boring and guarded that it wasn't worth going to?
If you hadn't noticed! HELPS!
*Smiles slightly* Oh I have ask myself this, no reason comes to mind. Actually I was aiming for people to give me LGBT related sites that aren't guarded or boring as a bonus...
Actually I have looked for employment but like my father's father and my father I'm stuck in this town till the day I fortunately do die.
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3 Comments on Why have I been forsaken to be single & Virgin forever in a small town?
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Jon on
Sun, 15th Jan 2012 12:29 am
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tom on
Sun, 15th Jan 2012 12:56 am
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Kuda on
Sun, 15th Jan 2012 1:32 am
1. You hate where you live so get a job and move. Surely gaining employment is not limited by your sexuality. If you are going to college or Uni then you have a plethora of people around you and access to others. YOu are limiting yourself. Your town is not limiting you.
2. Lucky you to have SOME family you can discuss being gay with. None of mine are comfortable with that but I get it and don’t see it as a major problem, I simply don’t discuss that part of me with them. Everyone has their thing and I am OK with that.
3. You suffer from depression and so do millions of other. Some seek help and some let it consume them. Don’t assume you are special because you are depressed. Assume you can do better. How many times have you attempted to address this.
4. The internet is a shithole and we know that. Its full of perves and people who just want to jack off to someone else. Seems like the internet is giving you an excuse to stay in your “belltower” and yet you are complaining because its not being what you want.
When you realise that your not living your life the way it should be lived you may actually make substantial changes – none of what you mention is insurmountable. It just seems like an excuse to feel bad for yourself.
Harsh? No.
Hoenst? Yes. And I hope you see that.
EDIT Sorry I forget unemployment was genetic. Why did I bother even spending 10 minutes on giving a though out succinct answer.
Wallow on.
Leave, nothing is stopping you, especially if it so rubbish. Go to another country or another part of the country. The risk cannot turn out any worse than what you already have!
I live in a small town 2. Only 4,000 people. Haha, well I am in a small country. No one here to go out with. Kinda gets boring and lonely but I have a few friends, well about 20, and a lot of them do drama to me, so it so fun to hang with them. This is in RL, I have a few hundred online, so easy to make friends onlien lol 
I just spend my time playing games and sports, MMORPG’s are great, We could talk online, just add my MSN, … Drakes my real name I think once you find some cool mmorpgs, and make friends, then its easy to make friends in real life. Second Life is my fav game, you might like it.
-From another single virgin :3 lol
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